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my name is Steph and i am 23 from Scotland. i have a wonderful fiancee and a crazy cat called Corey lol.

Sunday, 7 October 2012

Sorry for absence

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Hello there, well sorry for my absence, i was without a laptop for a while, but i am back here is a quick update.

Well as i stated before i started bleeding, or should i say spotting on the 19th of august, and it got heavy a few days later, well i still haven't stopped, yep thats well over a month, it's not heavy, some days its just spotting, others its a short burst flow and others it can be a bit heavier.
I am unable to make my hospital app so i intend to go see my local GP about this, it seems i have gone from one extreme to the next :S i wouldn't mind so much but it is leaving me drained and sluggish which makes exercising next to impossible.

So yea that is all that is new right now, i shall say bye for now until i have more news.

Nienie x

Saturday, 1 September 2012


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Hey i just wanted to share with you. a link to the website i post my stories on, i also have a sort of poem/ thoughts book thing going.

thought i would sahre, and if you are interested you could even take a peek at my other books, they are my original works, i would love feed back on them too :D

Break Down

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So i had a bit of a break down last night in bed.

I had just written my piece for the PCOS awareness blog and well i don't know what happened it just hit me, i have had this for five years now but it just hit me, this is my life. my whole life is going to be a constant battle. Another thing that upset me was the lack of care and support we have, nobody cares about PCOS women, As i said in my last post, it may not be as life threatening as Cancer but it is a life long battle and we need support as much as them, not to mention the fact that we are at a high risk of getting cancer because of it and heart disease and such like, I think people read PCOS and think its as simple as having the cold. i mean none around me understands and last night i just felt completely alone.

My man told me i was never alone, which i love and appreciate that he said that but, as much as i know he will always love and support me he doesn't understand the real feeling of this fight, the feeling of not being in control of your own body the feeling of being a failure of a fiancee and daughter because i can't give him a child and my mum a grandchild.

I just don't know how he puts up with me, he gives me everything i need and more, he buys me everything i need to help aid me int his fight and i find myself being horrible to him sometimes, it's like if i am having a bad day and he will do something silly, nothing that warrants my reaction but i will explode at him, i feel awful afterwards, i fear that my irrational behavior, my angry outburst will drive him away and i think all this just got to me last night :(

Anyway, i just needed to write that down. i feel okay today after a half decent night sleep.

Nienie xox

Cherish your children

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Do you have children?

If the answer is yes, then never forget to appreciate them, always remember how lucky you are to have been blessed with such a wonderful gift.

Many women out there, me included haven't been blessed so easily, many woman would kill to have what you have, so never take for granted what you have cherish every moment you spend with your kids.

PCOS renders us infertile, not nessciserially permantly but it takes a lot of hard work to make our body work in a way that makes this option possible. it takes a lot of tears and heart breaks, some may never know the feeling of having your own child some, will be blessed after a lot of work.

I know people may be getting sick of my PCOS statuses, but PCOS may not be as sever as say cancer, but it is a life changing illness, that actually can lead to cancer as well as heart disease and many other health problems, most people don't give it a second thought, hell i didn't until i had it, now i understand the severity of it all, i wish i could do more than write a few posts that no one will read.

Pcos is so much more than anyone realizes and i think it's sad no one seems to care, i mean not even the doctors care to much, all those damn leaflets they have hanging around there offices, have you ever seen one about PCOS? i haven't :(

It is important we help spread the awareness of PCOS because 1/10 women are affected by it and they don't even realize, the longer you go diagnosis, the harder it will be for you to get it under control.

People wonder why i am cry a lot and why i am in bitchy moods a lot, well if you had to fight this disease everyday you would cry sometimes and you would feel angry and alone and just want the world to stop for two minutes so you can gather your thoughts and get ready to continue the fight another day.

So i am sorry of my PCOS posts will annoy some of you but i care about PCOS and i want to get the word out, it is not some silly illness it is not easy, it is a hard heartbreaking long mentally and physically challenging life long battle.

Thanks to anyone who took the time to actually read this, it means a lot xx

Friday, 31 August 2012

PCOS Awareness

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Hello there.

As you may or may  not know September is PCOS awareness month.

So i would love it if you could take ten minutes out of your time and read this post, to help understand and support PCOS women such as myself, we appreciate every small speck of support, as this is a lifetime struggle for us and sometimes it is easy to feel so completely alone.

So i should start with

What is PCOS?

Polycystic (pah-lee-SIS-tik) ovary syndrome (PCOS) IT is a common hormone imbalance that affects around 1 out of 10 women. Girls as young as 11 can get PCOS. This section is for you if you have PCOS or are struggling with common signs of the condition, such as irregular periods, acne, or unwanted body hair.

I will now list a few common questions and i will answer to the best of my ability, from what i have read and my own personal experience.

What are the signs of PCOS? 

Some common signs of PCOS include:
  • Irregular periods or none at all
  • Pelvic pain
  • Extra hair on your face or other parts of your body, called “hirsutism” (HER-soo-tism)
  • Acne
  • Weight gain and/or trouble losing weight
  • Patches of dark skin on the back of your neck and other areas
If you have some or all of the above signs, you might have PCOS. There may be other reasons that you might have one or more of these signs. Only your doctor can tell for sure.

What causes PCOS? 

No one knows the exact cause of PCOS. We do know that it comes from problems with hormones, or natural body chemicals. Many girls with PCOS have too much insulin, a hormone that helps turn food into energy. Extra insulin can cause the darkened skin you may have on your neck, behind your knees, and other places. Also, having too much insulin may cause your body to make more of hormones called androgens (AN-druh-junz). Although these hormones cause male traits, females have them too. It’s the extra androgen that can lead to acne, excess body hair, weight gain, and irregular periods.

What tests are used to diagnose PCOS? 

If you think you may have PCOS, it’s smart to see your doctor. And knowing what to expect during the appointment can make it less stressful. Here’s a list of some of what you might experience:
  • Questions from your doctor about your menstrual cycle and your health
  • A physical examination, including a measure of your body mass index (BMI) and waist size. You may also have an examination of the outside of your vagina.
  • A blood test to check your hormone levels and blood sugar levels

Does PCOS mean I have cysts on my ovaries? 

The term "polycystic ovaries" means that there are lots of tiny cysts, or bumps, inside of the ovaries. Some young women with PCOS have these cysts; many others do not. Even if you do have them, they are not harmful and do not need to be removed.

Will PCOS affect my ability to have children some day?

Women with PCOS may have trouble getting pregnant, but some women have no trouble at all. If you are concerned about your fertility (ability to get pregnant) in the future, talk to your doctor about all the new options available. These include medications to lower your insulin levels and to help you ovulate — or release an egg — each month.

Does PCOS put me at risk for other conditions 

If you have PCOS, you may be at higher risk for other health problems. These include:
  • Diabetes
  • High cholesterol
  • High blood pressure
  • Heart disease
Women with PCOS often have low levels of the hormone progesterone. Progesterone causes the    to shed each month as your period. If you don't have enough progesterone, the endometrium becomes thick, which can cause heavy or irregular bleeding. In time, this can lead to endometrial hyperplasia, which means the uterus gets thick with abnormal cells, or cancer.
Getting your PCOS symptoms under control at an early age may help to reduce these risks.

What is the treatment for PCOS? 

There is no cure for PCOS, but there are lots of ways to treat it. You may use a few of them or different ones at different times, depending on your symptoms.
One great way to deal with PCOS is to eat well and exercise. If you are overweight, losing weight may help with symptoms and may reduce health risks related to PCOS. 
Birth control pills are a very common form of treatment for PCOS. Birth control pills contain hormones that can:
  • Correct the PCOS hormone imbalance
  • Lower the level of male hormones, which will lessen acne and hair growth
  • Regulate your menstrual periods
  • Lower the risk of endometrial cancer (which is higher in young women who don’t ovulate regularly)
Metformin is another medicine that may help with ovulation and other PCOS issues. Your doctor may also ask you to take a blood test to measure your body's ability to use glucose. (Glucose is a kind of sugar that your body breaks food into to use for fuel.) This test will help find out if you are more likely to get diabetes, which sometimes is also treated with metformin.
Anti-androgens work to reduce the effects of the male hormones on girls with PCOS. They can help clear up acne and hair growth. You can also deal with unwanted hair through electrolysis, hair removal creams, and laser treatment. There are lots of other options for treating acne

What if I have worries about having PCOS? 

If you have been told you have PCOS, you may feel frustrated or sad. You may also feel relieved that at last there is an explanation for the problems you have been having with keeping a healthy weight, having excess body hair, acne, or irregular periods. At the same time, having a diagnosis without an easy cure can be difficult. Keep in mind that there are treatments for many of the problems that PCOS can cause. And it is important for girls with PCOS to know they are not alone. Finding a doctor who knows a lot about PCOS and who you feel comfortable talking to is very important. Keeping a positive attitude and working on a healthy lifestyle even when results seem to take a long time is very important too! Many girls with PCOS tell us that talking with a counselor about their concerns can be very helpful. Other girls recommend Internet chat.
this website here is a great group to join 

PCOS doesn't have me

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Hey guys, i just wanted to share this picture, i think it is lovely and so very true, and to remind you to look out for my post for PCOS awareness month :D

While i am here, i should update on my situation.

I stopped bleeding all last night (i actually got sleep YAY) and all day today then, after i came out the shower, after dying my hair Blue :D yup blue it's fun ^_^ Anyway yes after my shower it suddenly started again, but it appears to have stopped, i just wish my darn body would make up it's mind -_-

Also, not sure why i just felt like it was something i needed to do, but i tested and it was a neg so, i have accepted i am not pregnant this time. Unlike all the other times i don't feel so disappointed, i think it's because at least now my body is trying to work and with this progress i have more of a chance next time, when i might ovulate for sure, instead of me just thinking i ovulated, so i see this as a positive thing and i am not worried. This time anyway.

So yea, that's all that is new right now

i will keep ypou posted should anything of interest happen :D

Nienie xox

Thursday, 30 August 2012

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So I saw this picture with this poem and had to share it. i am in need of hope. I have no need to  test on the fourth now you see. I am now bleeding and rather heavily at that. hence why it's 5:40am and I am not sleeping, I have to change every five minutes, it's ridiculous. I would be worried had i not gone through this heavy bleeding before, when i went to hospital, so i know this is normal for me now.

I haven't given up hope and it is not all bad. at least my body is working on it's own now, so that for sure is an amazing thing. it has taken it sweet ass time though 11 days of spotting before it finally decided to make a proper appearance lol. So why knows, in a couple of months when i will hopefully have a bit more regularity i can try again and maybe be successful :D

On a brighter happier note.

I want to say a big congrats to my new friend Nory for her weight loss, keep up the hard work girl it's all worth it in the end :D x